My musings of life

My happiness is lost Along with my breath This pain  Eating away from inside Like white ants eating away a tree Leaving nothing but an outside shell Seen to be intact from outside Yet hollow inside My heart pines at the thought That you are no more mine A part of my soul is dead Along with your memories Long lost yet freshly gained Footsteps on damp soil..

The pain in my heart When i realise The essence of this ruthless world The beauty of failure The secret behind loss The absence of happiness The wholesome pleas of my heart adamantly denied by my mind Diminishing the magnifying value  Of feelings in my life The choices that i insist on choosing Being plucked away from my grasp My fingers shivering My breath gasping Shocked by the loss of retrieval A chance of renewal of hope No hope is left in me I am more like a living corpse.

I am an entity Swimming along the edges of rivers Escaping from the catching hands Flapping my reluctant fins In a desperate attempt to stay alive My insides are bleeding And my heart's aching There is a turmoil going inside me Pulling its hook over me Its persuading my senses Re boosting my thoughts Devastating the tiny chord Linking my heart and brain My brain says no Heart pines a yes And I, a strugling warrior Am swimming away Along the banks of rivers Escaping from the catching hooks.

And there peeps someone beyond the horizons Above the bay Where hope defines its existence And all prayers are answered Believing that all the love she ever Dreamt of would come true All the wishes and dreams All the ripples in her ocean of thoughts Come together Making her, herself Returning her back Towards the horizon Into her.

'what' and 'if' are two words as non-threatening as words can be,but put them together,side by side and they have the power to haunt to for the rest of your life.'what if?' 'what if?' 'what if?' 

Here is another poem of mine..                           In my heart..          Dwells a sweet wish..           Located with a blush          A platinum rush…          With a golden glow,          Hides a sweet wish..          Apart from me          As much as myself          Melting away…

When happiness called, I flew above all the clouds.. It was a feeling in the depths of my heart As if I was a flower blossoming afresh As if I was on top of the world Renewing myself…in the folds of the nature Like nothing bad can ever happen to me Or I was too far off for the devil to touch me An omnipresent smile presenting itself…from nowhere A cool breeze flowing past me in hot sun.. Every human face appeared to be divine And every possibility…optimistic And there was I..smiling at everything For happy I was…:)