My musings of life

Everyday without you Since you had to go Its like summer without sunshine  And winter without snow I wish i could talk to you There is so much i would say Life has changed so much Since you went away I miss the bond between us And i miss your kind support You are in my mind and heart And every Christmas thought I will always feel you close to me And though you are far from sight i will search for you among the stars That shine every night

A deep meadow A shadowy shallow willow Whooping down the river A girl stands in the scene Her wavy hair dancing In the mysterious windy night Wishing her dreams come true Remembering all her dreams Watches a deer drinking water elegantly From the waters deep Waiting for her beloved In the misty night

You came close to me Smiled sweetly so ever I dream nothing but about you I am neither awake nor asleep I don't know how and when i fell in love I wonder i found peace in this turmoil I sit alone, weaving memories.

Oh my God! Love comes with so much pain The heart felt remains in the heart And does not escape ones lips My first love is incomplete You did not remember me There is nothing much left to say My heart cried and my eyes welled up You do not remember me I gave you all my joys Gave you all my smiles Your face enticed me Bidding messages of faithfulness You couldn't care for my love Now that you do not care There is nothing much left to say I have to live with this

My happiness is lost Along with my breath This pain  Eating away from inside Like white ants eating away a tree Leaving nothing but an outside shell Seen to be intact from outside Yet hollow inside My heart pines at the thought That you are no more mine A part of my soul is dead Along with your memories Long lost yet freshly gained Footsteps on damp soil..

The pain in my heart When i realise The essence of this ruthless world The beauty of failure The secret behind loss The absence of happiness The wholesome pleas of my heart adamantly denied by my mind Diminishing the magnifying value  Of feelings in my life The choices that i insist on choosing Being plucked away from my grasp My fingers shivering My breath gasping Shocked by the loss of retrieval A chance of renewal of hope No hope is left in me I am more like a living corpse.

I am an entity Swimming along the edges of rivers Escaping from the catching hands Flapping my reluctant fins In a desperate attempt to stay alive My insides are bleeding And my heart's aching There is a turmoil going inside me Pulling its hook over me Its persuading my senses Re boosting my thoughts Devastating the tiny chord Linking my heart and brain My brain says no Heart pines a yes And I, a strugling warrior Am swimming away Along the banks of rivers Escaping from the catching hooks.