My musings of life

My happiness is lost Along with my breath This pain  Eating away from inside Like white ants eating away a tree Leaving nothing but an outside shell Seen to be intact from outside Yet hollow inside My heart pines at the thought That you are no more mine A part of my soul is dead Along with your memories Long lost yet freshly gained Footsteps on damp soil..

The pain in my heart When i realise The essence of this ruthless world The beauty of failure The secret behind loss The absence of happiness The wholesome pleas of my heart adamantly denied by my mind Diminishing the magnifying value  Of feelings in my life The choices that i insist on choosing Being plucked away from my grasp My fingers shivering My breath gasping Shocked by the loss of retrieval A chance of renewal of hope No hope is left in me I am more like a living corpse.

I am an entity Swimming along the edges of rivers Escaping from the catching hands Flapping my reluctant fins In a desperate attempt to stay alive My insides are bleeding And my heart's aching There is a turmoil going inside me Pulling its hook over me Its persuading my senses Re boosting my thoughts Devastating the tiny chord Linking my heart and brain My brain says no Heart pines a yes And I, a strugling warrior Am swimming away Along the banks of rivers Escaping from the catching hooks.

And there peeps someone beyond the horizons Above the bay Where hope defines its existence And all prayers are answered Believing that all the love she ever Dreamt of would come true All the wishes and dreams All the ripples in her ocean of thoughts Come together Making her, herself Returning her back Towards the horizon Into her.

'what' and 'if' are two words as non-threatening as words can be,but put them together,side by side and they have the power to haunt to for the rest of your life.'what if?' 'what if?' 'what if?' 

Here is another poem of mine..                           In my heart..          Dwells a sweet wish..           Located with a blush          A platinum rush…          With a golden glow,          Hides a sweet wish..          Apart from me          As much as myself          Melting away…

When happiness called, I flew above all the clouds.. It was a feeling in the depths of my heart As if I was a flower blossoming afresh As if I was on top of the world Renewing myself…in the folds of the nature Like nothing bad can ever happen to me Or I was too far off for the devil to touch me An omnipresent smile presenting itself…from nowhere A cool breeze flowing past me in hot sun.. Every human face appeared to be divine And every possibility…optimistic And there was I..smiling at everything For happy I was…:)

Sometimes in life,some minute things count so much to us.It even might be a common situation.It might mean nothing to everybody,but only for us that little thing will be very special.There are at times in life when these small things make us feel very happy.Well, this is how i am feeling exactly right now and i accidentally stumbled upon this poem which is way too exact that i could not resist but post it.                                         Serendipity came to me                                         like dandelions                                         reaching for honey bees,                                         The quilt of a happy incident                                         that covered me whole                                         It pulled my curtains open                                         and let the sunshine flow                                         in and made the dust scatter                                         chasing with its

a pearl a pious feeling a feeling of serenity of something very pure untouched a lovely feeling of love.. Someone somewhere Lived amidst of all the vicious love Ever existed in this millennium Contagious along with the various twigs Broken hearts Repaired ones along with a hatred A feeling of love Obstructed with vision Blurred along with the foggy reality And there came the man A sweet lovable one Leaning on him, I forgot all worries A sense of relief Bounded upon me A feeling so unique Never felt upon And nor am I sure of All my life But I lost him Now that I live in reality Not in the dreams of My version of little princess Oh! How much I would love to have him back I hope we continue being friends The same as ever Reliable close sweet ones Without this denial Nor the pain Oh! How much do I long to meet him How much I like him I t

Now that i am 19 years old and just one more year left in my teens, i decided to write some points based on my experiences,and they go like these.,             Never call anyone your friend, not so easily.   Make sure you have someone you can call a friend in every situation of life. Aggression helps, suppression  doesn't . Finding yourself is everything. We all need a break and it needs intelligent brains to understand that. Nah..no rules.Heart knows none! Who’s to know if a decision is good or bad? Make one anyway! Take good food breaks to calm your senses. You might be the best, but you need to go all out to the world, that you are. You have to learn to decipher between friends and those who claim to be friends. Its great to make sense…sometimes. Never entertain weirdos, we are weird enough. Moving ahead should be and can be fun. Keep patience, as life shows you a brighter side. Learn to say ‘get lost’ when you really want someone to get lost. No rule!

“You don’t write because you want to say something, you write because you have something to say.”                                         - F. Scott Fitzgerald                        Well, Hi!!! This is my first blog and honestly i don't have any idea as of how an introduction should be, so i am just kind of escaping by copy pasting the above quote, and it does make sense and is true in my case.  Its been a long time that i have been thinking to write something and somehow i kept on procrastinating it and today of all days, when i have an exam tomorrow and an assignment to finish by evening, i am feeling like writing something very badly and tadaaa my blogs open!! Well,exams make me do anything other than studying!!                                 Coming to my  intro ,i usually prefer to be an anonymous writer but this time i am going to be a known one,Visishta. S ince the past half an hour, i have been thinking  about  the topic on which my 'beloved' blog should b